Mount Washington and Trust

On June 5th, 2013 I defeated the enemy. I, with GOD's strength did not allow fear to rob me of an amazing adventure. We drove or shall I say Doug drove while I prayed the EIGHT mile journey to the summit of Mount Washington. The summit is over 6200 feet in elevation and you make the drive on a very small road that carries you along the edge of the mountain all the way up. In many places it is you, the mountain, and the breath of GOD along side you. Did I mention there are NO guardrails? and we had to pull the mirrors in on Doug's truck? So, when they say there is enough room to meet a car they mean "just enough" room to meet a car.

Amazingly, I was only mildly anxious going up and even less anxious coming down. Over the years, Doug has taught me a lot about trust. In learning to trust my husband I have learned many lessons about trusting my Heavenly Father. Just as Doug loves to share beautiful blessings with me, God loves to share even greater blessings. God often wants to share extravagant, breath-taking, life-changing experiences with me and too many times I've refused. Thankfully, June 5th was not one of those times.

I am reminded of the words of Priscilla Shirer, "Just go with it. Follow Him, impossible as it may seem."

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

~The picture above was one of many I took while standing atop Mt. Washington. They call it a "presidential view."

Looking Back, Looking Forward!

In a few weeks I will be 47 years old. That's almost half a century. As I reflect upon where I have been and where I am headed I have many questions.

~Am I living out my life being who God created me to be?
~Am I living out God's love to the world around me?
~Now what?

Notice, my questions do not reflect regrets, but rather where God may be leading. I can not undo the past, but I can try to do better in the future. I can choose to step outside of "my comfortable" and move into the messiness of this earthly life confidently.

Looking back toward past mistakes breeds insecurity in my heart. Looking forward into the messiness of earthly life, but staying securely in my comfort zone also holds me back. I desperately need balance. I am doing my best to stay focused on God rather than the mistakes or mess ups of the past and the sometimes scary adventures of my future.

Please join me as I embrace the messiness of the path before me with confidence and trust. God will continue to lead us and give us grace for each moment of the journey He has called us to. He is constant and true and the only One we can fully trust. So, let's keep running......

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

The Journey Continues

Life is full of "fun" adventures as well as "not so fun" (complicated) adventures. We learn and grow through each of them. Recently, I embraced a 12 week journey to become a better me emotionally, physically, and spiritually. During this journey I lost 7 pounds and several inches. My most profitable gain has been recognizing triggers leading to emotional eating and beginning to address them.

On April 13th, I completed my first 10k. I power-walked the Ukrops Monument Avenue 10k in 1:42:25. I can honestly say, "It felt good and I want to do it again!" Completing the 10k was not about setting a record or beating someone else's time. It was about me and my relationship with God.

While participating in a 10k may not seem to fall under the "spiritual" category in other folks world, it does in mine. I prayed God would change my heart toward exercise and He did it.

The journey continues....

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Run With Purpose

Each of us are at different places in our walks with the Lord. We continue to put one foot in front of the other as we climb the mountains and dip into the valleys of this life. Sometimes we crawl...sometimes we walk...and occasionally we run.

On those days when the journey seems overwhelming or the terrain seems to treacherous remember you are "not" alone. God is with you. Look for Him along the way.

"We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance." Romans 5:3 NLT

"So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing." 1 Corinthians 9:26

Let's be found "running with purpose!"

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Inside or Outside

I love old barns. For me, each broken and tattered structure embodies strength and character. I am also reminded of the old saying, "you can't judge a book by it's cover." Often, we judge others by what we see. This is not a good plan. God created each of us with a purpose. Let's be found faithfully looking past the ruff and broken exterior of others lives. Instead, lets look into the hearts of those along the path of  this difficult and challenging life.

Jesus loved Judas even though He knew he would betray Him. WOW! As we celebrate this Easter season with our family and friends, lets embrace Jesus unfathomable love and rejoice in the love and acceptance only He can provide.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Message from our 5 year old!

Message from our 5 year old!

Savannah: "Papa can we go to the book store and get a new book? I want a book I can read."

Papa: "Did you bring your money?"

Savannah: "No, my money has to be used as an offering for people who need food, shelter, and water!"

Papa: "Don't you need shelter?"

Savannah: "Papa, I already have shelter!"

Papa: "Point taken!"

And we were off to find a book for Savannah to read. Minutes later our precious little 5 year old pulled a second grade book of the shelf and began reading it to Papa and I. 

Savannah's heart speaks loudly without needed interpretation from Nana. I pray you will let her words touch your heart today allowing GOD to use them for HIS glory. 

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

~URGENT PRAYER REQUEST: Please pray for my friend Dianne's sister, Sheriann. She has Stage II Breast Cancer and was admitted to the hospital last night (3/10/2013) with multiple blood clots. Sheriann needs a miracle and her family has requested prayer on her behalf. Please add this request to any prayer group you are a part of. THANK YOU!

Soul Training Plan

Soul Training Plan
(Unedited Journal Notes)

I will make a conscious effort daily to allow God to make a difference in my life, so I can make a difference in the lives of others. By beginning each day with an intentional purpose of seeking God's presence and fellowship, I will better cope with my own day and become better equipped to share God's peace, love, and comfort with others through my actions as well as my written and spoken words.

As I begin each day "trying to become a better me," I'm embracing new beginnings with joy only God can give and I'm trusting in areas I have not been able to trust.

My plan may sound simple on paper, but deep within the plan embodies much work--work only attainable by a heart ready and willing to accept the love, peace, and healing Christ is patiently waiting to administer. As I am ready, He will heal....and with the healing of each wound I will reach out to those around me being sensitive to their wounds.

Hopefully, others will realize God has a better plan for them....a place of living life above the rubble. So, you will find me off and running--running my way out of the rubble and into the Light, God's Light!

"My race" is the race God has chosen for me....a race only I can run, a unique race.

I was asked yesterday not to refer to myself as "crazy." As I prayed about this request, God gave me a new word, "Unique." So, I will run the race before me realizing God will use "my unique self" for His purpose and I'm thankful my race will weave in and out of the lives of treasured and faithful friends.
  
^"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who^[a] have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 NIV

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Are things really the way we see them?

Are things really the way we see them? 

Are the numbers real? How important are they? What do they really mean?

For the third week in a row, I gained a pound. Yes, again, I gained!

Last week, I had a mini melt down. This week, I said, "oh well!"

What's the difference in the attitude?

The difference is realizing I am healthier. I am becoming more physically fit. I am now able to power walk a little over six miles without thinking I'm going to die along the way. During our weekly boot camp with a personal trainer, he said, "You are doing a lot better this week! How are you feeling?" I was able to say, "Good!" and mean it!

So, Are things really the way we see them?

Yes and No. Yes, the number reflects my weight at this current moment. No, things are "not" the same. I have gained a lot of muscle and lost many inches. I am becoming a healthier me no matter what number is on the scales. I must continue to persevere! 

^"2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,^[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4 NIV

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

ONE POUND

Often we do not view ourselves correctly. Most importantly we do not see ourselves in a manner that is pleasing to God. It is easy to get discouraged and frustrated.

As I weighed in this week and received the news of "gaining" another pound I had a meltdown moment.

"Another pound".....WHAT?

Gaining distracted me from all the progress I made. I allowed ONE POUND to over shadow the facts of my progress.

Progress:

~Excercised every day!

~Two days in a row, I power-walked just under SEVEN miles. I even jogged "a little" of it! This alone is HUGE for me.

~My clothes are lose.

Refocusing and remembering a very important Bible verse:

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish it's work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Ups and Downs

There are ups and downs in every journey. Last week, I "gained" a pound.

Do you know how much a pound is? It is four sticks of butter.

Do you know how hard it is to get that pound and others back off? Well, I'm sure you do, but I needed to scream at someone other than myself. Now would be the time to metaphorically duck!

On top of gaining a pound this week my joints have continuously screamed at me. If you are thinking, "she is not a happy camper." Well, my wonderful husband would say, "you are absolutely correct."

Each week we have a weekly challenge. I don't think it co-incidence my challenge is to memorize James 1:2-4.

"Consider it pure joy my brothers and sisters, whenever you face troubles of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4 NIV

As I consider my memory verse, I am reminded we all face "trials of many kinds" on a daily basis whether they have anything to do with weight loss or not. Each of us must persevere! I must keep working on becoming a better me until I step into heaven at the end of my earthly life.

Let's remember, God completes us as we allow Him to work in and through our lives. We can NOT do this on our own, but we can do this by embracing our Heavenly Father in each moment and in each step on the path to health and freedom. God promises to be with me/us!

In one way or another we are all on the same journey....a journey of faith, healing, and happiness. Yes, we can be happy in our circumstances, happy knowing "we're a work in progress" and we are all in this together!

So, do NOT allow the "Ups and Downs" of this life to get you down. Grab hold of the hand of your Heavenly Father and cling tightly as you continue putting one foot in front of the other on your journey.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

~Answered Prayer: Doug and I received the results from his last biopsy and there is NO cancer growth over this past year! Yes, you heard me right...NO cancer growth. We are praising GOD for all HE continues to do in and through our lives. We thank each of you for your prayers, encouragement, and support. You will never know what you mean to us.

Go BIG or NOT at All!

"Go BIG or NOT at All" seems to be a way of thinking common in our world and one we often get hung up on. We all like to see "BIG" results when we work on a project. So, imagine the project remodel is your body.....your heart! At first, the prospect of a remodel may not seem overwhelming, but the more closets you clean out and the more mess and excess baggage you uncover reveals a huge task.One you are not sure you are ready or want to take on.

Next, you sign up for an accountability group at church. What in the world were you thinking? Each week you weigh in. The first week you lose 4.4 pounds. The next week you lose 1 pound. For real, all that hard work and you barely lose a pound the second week. Sadly, you realize the real work of heart reform isn't going to show up on the scales. The heaviest weight is not going to count in monetary form.

Yes, it's Me! Lifestyle change can be difficult. The greatest reform is going on in my heart. I realized I was using food to self medicate whether happy or sad. They say the first step is acknowledging it. For me, that was the easy step and the first brick of a heavy load I tossed. The real work is a daily battle. I am learning to fill my heart with God, His love, and His word rather than food or other unhealthy choices.

Now, back to the numbers, because I'm sure I'm not the only one who loses focus on the real goal of heart reform and gets caught up in the numbers. I'm very thankful for the five pounds and four ounces I lost. So thankful, I'm including the four ounces. After all, four ounces is a quarter of a pound of fat and in my world it's worth not forgetting.

What I've recognized is there are at least two ways of looking at these numbers:

1) Five point four pounds...that's all I lost in two weeks. This is too hard. I quit!

2) WOW, GOD helped me peel away five point four pounds of physical weight from my body and even more from my heart and soul. Some days this is very hard, but it feels good! With God's help, I can do it! And on the days when the work of heart reform and obedience is too hard I will lean heavily upon my Heavenly Father and trust Him with the journey.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Praise

The word "Praise" is not near a big enough word! We can not express our thankfulness adequately to our Heavenly Father for answering our prayers.

Yesterday, as we sat in the doctors office waiting for test results there was a peaceful quiet. Both Doug and I sat in silent prayer as other patients came and went. The commotion of nurses, doctors, and staff hummed as they proceeded with daily tasks; Time moving forward as it most certainly does and will continue to do until the end of all time.

Dr. Morgan bounced into our room with a HUGE smile on his face and said,

"It's great news! This is what we always want to see! NO growth in cancer in a year!"

What sweet relief and excitement we both felt. Victory unlike I have ever known or felt. Today, we continue to praise GOD and thank HIM for what HE is doing in and through Doug's body.

We also thank GOD for each of you, for your love, encouragement, and prayers. We are truly blessed to have so many lifting us up in prayer. May GOD bless each of you.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Prayer and Promise

Stumbling through this earthly life has prepared me to come here with a heart full of humility seeking prayer. Over the last few years, I've tried desperately to become "a better me!" Some days I've been successful and others I have not. Along the way, I've realized there are many facets to "becoming a better me." GOD has graciously given me a community to come along side in prayer, encouragement, and on many days to simply listen to the rambling words of a crazy lady. You, my friends are a very important part of my community and I love how GOD brought each of you into my life. You came here as readers, by the grace of GOD you stayed, and along the journey you became friends.

A few of the areas in my life that need renewal and recovery:

Spiritual: Abetter heart relationship with my Heavenly Father.
Physical: Health issues
Emotional: A need for total dependance on GOD every moment of every day.

Well, did I cover everything? Probably not!

Yesterday, I joined a group at New Life UMC. It's called, "Choose 2 Lose." I've made progress on my own, but after prayer I realized the accountability and encouragement of others could be a great asset.

Then the thoughts of  defeat and failure came:

"what if you fail"
"now you have to chart your progress or failure"
"you know you don't want to answer to other humans"
"you know you have health issues and they will not understand them"
"you know this is horrible timing"

You get the picture. The enemy just wants me to fall short of my goal.

NO WAY am I going to give in this easily. So, here I am today confessing to the entire world my desires as well as my fears. GOD knows my heart and HE has promised to be with me every step of the way. I may not be able to do this on my own, but I can do this and anything else my GOD calls me to do through HIS strength. 

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

~An added prayer request for my best friend and husband, Doug. He will have a biopsy tomorrow.

Life Lessons from The Perdue Zoo

As we stumble through this life, we think we are training our dogs and children. Instead, GOD is molding and training us through them. Through every jerk of the leash and exuberant defiance of the child, we become more pliable. With each challenge comes opportunity to grow and learn. We rise to the occasion on most days, yet on other days we crumble falling head first into a heap of laundry or a large pile of dog poop. As we gather our last ounce of strength, we stand a little smelly, but taller, stronger, and even a bit wiser.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Beginning 2013 With Purpose

As we begin 2013, let us focus our lives on making a positive difference in the lives of others. Lets be found walking away from negativity and embracing the love of Christ. Most of the time it is just that simple. The hard part is often keeping our mouth shut when walking away. It may not be hard for all of you, but it is for me.

~Praying GOD will use the craziness of our lives to make a positive difference in the lives of others!

~Keep loving, keep writing, keep being all God created you to be!

~Keep your purpose focused on HIS purpose! 

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Diane Estrella Interviews Me

Today, I am visiting Diane Estrella's site, "That's What I'm Here For." A few months ago Diane asked to interview me. At first, I wasn't sure whether I should do it or not. After praying, I realized God could use my journey to help others find their voice or find the courage to tell their own stories. We all have a story. Join me as I put pen to paper and follow God's call.

Please click the above link and visit Diane's page. Let her know how much you appreciate the community of encouragement she has created.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,
Andrea Bowling Perdue

Merry Christmas from The Perdue Zoo

"So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger."
Luke 2:16 NIV

Lets remember the real meaning of Christmas as we prepare our hearts to celebrate the birth of our Savior.

The Perdue Zoo wishes everyone a blessed Christmas with hearts full of love!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,
Andrea Bowling Perdue

Looking Through The Lens Of Life

As we look through the lens of life, let's remember:

God does not expect more of us than we are capable of giving.  After all, He created us.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,
Andrea Bowling Perdue

Join The Club

Do you ever feel like you are climbing a slippery slope when trying desperately to help the people you love the most?

Do you feel as though the harder you try, the more desperate the situation?

Do you ever feel......."If only I could say the one right thing to get through to them?"

Well, prayer warriors and friends, JOIN THE CLUB! I am here today to share wise words from a human I dearly love and respect. After watching me anguish over a situation, my husband, Doug said, "You realize you can NOT fix this....only GOD can!"

My response: "My head knows, my heart is trying to catch up!"

Has the situation changed? NO!

Have I changed? YES!

I am in a moment by moment surrender mode! Yes, "moment by moment!" That's all I can manage. So, today when you struggle with similar situations, know there is another human out there taking deep breaths each moment as she fully surrenders her concerns to the Lord.

"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you." 1 Peter 5:7 NLT

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

GOD Speaks!

God speaks to us through HIS word, through prayer, through creation, and through the hearts of other believers. Once again, I am reminded of HIS call on my life. HE wants me to use the gifts HE has given me.

This morning, several friends said:

"Your job is to respond and obey immediately. It is NOT your job to try and figure everything out!"

"When GOD speaks, respond with reckless abandonment!"

"I love your pictures, why don't you publish a book?"

"What are you waiting on? Get with it!"

It seems GOD is once again trying to get my attention! Please pray with me as I "try" to be obedient and not question the steps along the journey! As much as I get excited thinking about what HE has placed in my heart, I am equally scared.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

The Ultimate Gardener

Last Friday, Doug and I experienced a beautiful day with a great friend at Lewis Ginter Botanical Gardens in Richmond, Virginia. This is just one of the magnificent flowers we saw. As I gaze at each bloom in all their glory I am reminded of the process which births such beauty. Every flower in the garden began either as a seed or a bulb in a mound of dirt. I realize I may be simplifying the process too much, but stick with me.

I started out in much the same way, a misshaped bulb in "The Ultimate Gardener's" hand. Over time, "The Ultimate Gardener" shaped me and molded me into the person I am today. The storms of life came and went. The rains poured and the floods gushed by. Many times the force of the winds blew me over. I've been stepped on, crushed, and nearly killed by those who thought I was useless and stupid. Yet, "The Ultimate Gardener" would not let me die.

Today, I continue to put one foot in front of the other toward the place God is calling me. While embracing where I have been I have a renewed strength and courage to move forward. My God, "The Ultimate Gardener has a plan for both me and you. He loves me and He loves you, too!

Don't be discouraged if you feel battered, bruised, or wilted. Whether your feet are soggy or you are experiencing a deep drought. Cling to "The Ultimate Gardener." He will complete what He began in your heart in the very beginning of time!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Learning To Jump

When learning to jump from new heights it's always easier with someone you love. Recently, our granddaughter, Savannah taught our grandson, Elijah to jump from the top step of the mounting box. Soon, they were jumping together. 

Many times in life, GOD asks us to jump or take a step in a direction we have not considered. It may not be a big step, yet it seems scarey. Often, the support is there yet we try to go it alone. Let's look for encouragement from those in our path and embrace the love and support graciously offered.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

I Write To....

I write to remember...
Not to forget!

I write for healing...
Not to forget!

I write to draw closer to my Lord...
Not to forget!

By His mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,
Andrea Bowling Perdue

Grace, Love, and Mercy

During our earthly lives Doug and I have made many mistakes. Through the years, GOD has worked mightily in and through both of our lives. As we have stumbled and crawled through many valleys, we have both learned much. With the crest of each mountain we rejoice. Our precious LORD has extended much grace, love, and mercy along the way. Neither of us deserve GOD's grace, love, or mercy, yet HE continues to pour it out in and through our lives. 

Today, as you go about your journey consider extending grace, love, and mercy to those who don't deserve it. Allow GOD to use you in unlikely places to transform the lives of those who are broken and unlovable. You never know what a difference you will make until you try! 

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Football, Faith, and Family

The approach of fall brings cooler temperatures, a majestic transformation of God's majesty as we are visually stimulated by the beautiful colors of the leaves, and for many it brings a new season of "football!" Over the years, football has been serious business in my (Bowling) family! This past week, God began to speak to me as I thought about football and my family! Here's what HE had to say:

Where there is competition there will always be one winner and one loser, unless all parties carry the "love of JESUS" in their hearts. With JESUS, "everyone wins" no matter who wins the "football" game! Most importantly, "JESUS WINS" another victory for the "ULTIMATE HOME TEAM!"

So, as you go forward with passion pulling for your favorite football team, remember to NEVER allow satan to use the sport you enjoy to cause problems with family and friends! It seems silly when we think about it, but it happens!

Look for ways to use your passion for football to share your passion for JESUS! Shouldn't football, faith, and family co-mingle happily?

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

It's Our Turn

It's Our Turn

To Look.
To Observe.

What might we learn?

Our privilege.
Our favor.

It's our turn.

A worn pathway leads to the crest of each mountain.

It broadens.
It narrows.

God shaped and ready.

Each inhabitant gazing upon the beauty within its reach.

Life harsh to our forefathers, glorious to our grandchildren.

Blessings surrounded by the thorns and thistles of an earthly life.

Andrea Bowling Perdue


^"28 And we know that God causes everything to work together^[a] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. ²⁹ For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn^[b] among many brothers and sisters. ³⁰ And having chosen them, he called them to come to him. And having called them, he gave them right standing with himself. And having given them right standing, he gave them his glory." Romans 8: 28-31 NLT

~The poem above was written as a gift for my cousin Mark Bowling and all other bowling cousins, young and old! May GOD bless each generation!

The "Selfish Me" is Whittled Away!

With each passing day, I have a greater understanding of who God wants me to be. Slowly, the "selfish me" is whittled away. My reactions should reflect the heart of Christ whether they make sense to others or not. As I continue to stumble my way through this earthly life I will surely experience times of failure, as well as accomplishment. Both provide an opportunity to grow and learn. I pray my eyes and heart will not be blind to "God's" revelations in each experience.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Journal Notes: Our Journey

Notes from my journal during our recent vacation. Doug asked me to share them.

Our Journey

Our days at 251 Longfellow Cove are narrowing....coming to a close. Fourteen days fly by. Time together priceless. From our first visit several years ago until now, Doug and I have changed. Our relationship has grown. Our lives have taken many twists and turns. With each storm, we've taken one step closer to each other and to our Lord. We've danced a beautiful dance along the way. Our lives beautifully intertwined by the hand of Almighty God. Sweet fellowship and tender touch is easy and natural. Spoken words easy and gentle with nothing held back. Honesty and truth intensify and build our love. We are stronger together as one.

Gracefully, we stumble together taking one step at a time into the future God has for us. We come to this place embracing the work God set us to. Sometimes difficult and painful, yet easier hand in hand. We will continue forward. When one of us is tired the other will wait. When the road becomes to difficult for both of us, we will share a shelter in the hand of God. We will in the end find rest together as God renews and strengthens our hearts and souls.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Life Is Fragile

Life is fragile. At any moment our lives could be altered and forever changed. Many times, I internalize my feelings or allow situations to eat at me. In doing so, I am wasting valuable time. Life here on earth can be difficult, but we should not allow those difficulties to hinder or true call. Every situation I face has the potential to shine God's glory and love through me. Let's shine brightly today!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Wolfie's Secret Place

Last week, Sitka (my alaskan malamute) wrote about his friend Wolfie on his blog, All God's Creatures. After much thought, I realized Sitka's article should be shared on my blog, too. Hope each of you enjoy Sitka's wise words!

Meet my friend Wolfie. Wolfie has experienced two lives. In his previous life he suffered greatly. He doesn't share the details of his torment, but we know it was horrific. For the last few years, he has experienced only love, gourmet meals prepared by Chef Mom, trips to waffle house with Dad and his furry sister Timber, and lots of other special treats. Their home is nestled amongst the trees in a suburban community near Richmond, Va.

With all this love and attention you might ask what my furry friend could possibly want? Well, everybody needs a get away; one of those places no one else knows about. A place to lay in the sun and gaze at the water. Above is a picture of Wolfie at his private get away. Doesn't he look content and at peace? It's rumored there are times when his parents are ready to return to their home in the trees and he refuses. Sometimes, he just needs a few more days to lay on the hill and gaze at the water.

God has blessed Wolfie with the life he deserved from the beginning. Just like with many humans, Wolfie needed a peaceful place to listen and talk to God. Don't be jealous of Wolfie. If you look around you will find a place to retreat. It may be in a park or in the woods by a creek, but if you look hard enough God will lead you to that place. Focus on the good and leave the pain of the past in the past. Life is too short to fret and frown. 

Woofs and Wags,

Sitka

 ~The last few weeks have been crazy in The Perdue Zoo. Please keep us in your prayers as we stumble, crawl, and curl up in the arms of our Heavenly Father!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,
Andrea

Listen Carefully

As I sit here this morning, I long to sit on the river bank dangling my toes in the creek. There is something about being nestled alongside a mountain with no viable communication with the outside world. The only communication available is with GOD or possibly the human you may share the surrounding beauty with. 

God speaks loudly through His creation when we slow down and listen. It's amazing how loud the water sounds as it rumbles over the rocks and around the bends and curves of the river bed. 

If you are like me, you are far from this beautiful river or your special quiet place with God. As we make our way through the chaos of today, lets try to listen carefully for the beautiful sounds of our Heavenly Father.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

~PRAYER REQUEST: Please continue to pray for my brother in law, David Smith. He has Chronic Lymphatic Leukemia. He is undergoing Chemo, again.

Walking In The Clouds

Yesterday, Doug and I spent the day in Shenandoah National Park. It was a day filled with many new experiences for each of us. One experience we were given by God was walking amongst the clouds. There were moments where the cloud formation around us was so dense we could not see more than a step or two in any direction. Then we would watch the cloud float past us and in minutes we would be standing in the direct sun light. In the picture above we were standing in the meadow near Big Meadow lodge. These trees would disappear completely and then become clearer as the clouds gently moved past us.

There are many times in our lives when the clouds are so thick we don't know where to turn. There are other times we know exactly where to go and what to do. Doug and I were reminded of GOD's peace and comfort during each season of our lives. It is important to draw close to Him in both seasons, not just the more difficult times. We were also reminded of the beauty in each season. We must take the time to look a little harder when the clouds of life become very dense.

Today, join us as we rejoice in the place GOD has us, whether cloudy or sunny!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Focus

The dance of life distracts from what is most important. The slow movements of each day warrant attention before the chaos of many yesterdays crumble beneath our feet. Let's keep our focus on our Heavenly Father and nothing else!

By His mercy and in the grip of His grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Weary, Wounded, and Broken

"Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28 NLT


Weary, wounded, and broken are many these days. Take courage and know GOD will go with you giving you rest through out your journey. HE doesn't promise us freedom from struggles, but HE does promise to be with us all the way through them.


"But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.
    O Israel, the one who formed you says,
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
    I have called you by name; you are mine.
² When you go through deep waters,
    I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
    you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
    you will not be burned up;
    the flames will not consume you.
³ For I am the Lord, your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;
    I gave Ethiopia^[a] and Seba in your place." 
Isaiah 43: 1-3 NLT


By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Lesson, Be Real

Life is.....Just a final journey

Step by step
Mistakes
Mishaps

Stumble
Crawl
Even I fall

Some how
Some way
With pain
With Purpose

Strained insight revealed
Not at all glorious
Lesson,
"Be real"

My life
My journey
One day will close
Finality on this earth

Lesson
"Be real"

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,
Andrea Bowling Perdue

Update and URGENT Prayer Request for David Smith

Please "storm the heavens in prayer"for my brother in law, David Smith. David has Chronic Lymphatic Leukemia.This week, David began a new regimen of Chemo. Many of you have been praying for him for some time and our family deeply appreciates your time, love, encouragement, and prayers.

Also, please continue to pray for my sister, Courtney as she cares for him. Many of you know and understand how hard it is for the person closest to the patient.

Again, THANK YOU for your continued prayers!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Easter

“For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16 NLT


By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,
Andrea

No Root Bed

In the past two weeks we have lost two large red oaks. Both fell through our fence. The first one was dead, but this one was alive. So why did it fall? On examination, Doug said, "There was basically "no" root bed and that is unusual for a red oak."

"No" root bed! What does this mean to me? I look fine from the outside, but what do my roots look like? If I fall over and leave this world what will my husband, children, and grandchildren see? Am I leaving a worthy legacy for them?

Lets seek to be all GOD created us to be. When we mess up, lets ask for forgiveness and begin again. Lets leave this world still building stronger roots and a heritage worth leaving behind.

For those feeling a bit like you don't have much to work with. That's okay, God loves showing off and making great treasures out of broken vessels. Join me and we will cling with all we have got to our precious Lord as HE works miracles in and through our hearts!

By His mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Write It Down

"This is what the Lord, the GOD of Israel, says: Write down for the record everything I have said to you, Jeremiah." Jeremiah 30:2

Has God ever asked you to "write something down?" When we write, our words have lasting value. Many times we give up, too soon. We want to skip or not think about the pain. For me, hope and victory come through "writing it down!" However, over the years "the written words" have been safely tucked away in journals and notebooks for no one else to see.

When God said, "write it down" a couple of years ago I replied, "I already did that!"

He said, "Write it down, again and this time share them with the world!"

I have not been faithful to the task. Yes, I have been "writing it down," but not continually. This past week a fellow christian posted a facebook status reigning down conviction on my heart. I began again. Thankfully, our GOD does "not" give up on us. He lets us begin anew when we fall or stumble.

Now, to begin again allowing God guide the words through my pen. The timing and completion are in His hands. Please join me in prayer as I seek to be faithful to His call.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Scoop The Poop

Sitka is the largest of our fur babies, weighing in at about 125 pounds. The snow has melted and spring has sprung in Richmond, Virginia. It's time to clean up and prepare to play outside. Yesterday, as I scooped the poop in our back yard I pondered about the "poop" in my life!

Poop sometimes represents the stinky truth. Yes, you heard me...truth stinks, sometimes. We need to keep the poop out of our hearts and lives, otherwise our very existence  begins to stink. So, let's keep scooping and getting rid of the bad stuff. After all, when we go a few days with out scooping, the poop piles up!

Be encouraged and know you are not alone. We all have "stinky stuff/poop" we need to get rid of in our lives. None of us are exempt. Join me and let's keep scooping!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

The Vein and The Pain Run Deep

The veins in the petal of each flower run deep, signifying life. Our lives are full of petals and each petal is full of veins. Each vein holds pain and happiness. We usually let the happy times shine. The depth of our pain is often carefully hidden, yet never completely. We may think we can hide the pain, but others see it through the vein. Today, I find myself sorting through the pain praying GOD will give me the appropriate words to share. When revealing the damaging part of our lives we should examine our motives.

Revealing the pain of the past should:

~Always bring health and healing.
~Help others who are hurting.
~Promote understanding.
~Draw others close to GOD!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Happy Birthday Doug!

On February 28th, 1943 a wonderful man was born. Before Doug's second birthday his father joined heaven after storming the banks of Normany and marching through France. He fought valiantly and sacrificed his own life in order for his son, Doug to live and enjoy freedom in America. Doug was raised by his mother, a wonderful godly woman who provided him with many opportunities and experiences. The greatest gift she gave him was the gift of love and family.

Together, Doug and I share five wonderful children, an awesome son-in-law and daughter-in-law, and two gorgeous, loving grandchildren. In our family, Doug is NOT biologically related to any of us. He chose us! By choosing us, Doug is a daily reminder of GOD's love and the love of Christ!

THANK YOU, Doug for being a constant reminder of how much GOD loves us! We love you and we are thankful GOD chose you to be a part of our lives!

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Innocence and Example of a Child

A couple of weeks ago, Doug and I traveled to Stanley, Virginia to visit friends. We decided to eat a late lunch at a local restaurant, The Hawksbill Diner (1388 E Main St Stanley, VA 22851). We enjoyed home cooked food, but were entertained by the most charming little girl. Her name is Kaylee.

Kaylee oozed with the sweet innocence of a child. Jesus calls us to have the heart of a child. He wants us to love and encourage others without conditions or preconceived ideas of what they should or should not be. Kaylee was not afraid to speak her mind. She was confident and kind as she bubbled over with smiles.

Thank you, Kaylee for brightening our day and reminding us to be kind to all those in our path. Thank you to Kaylee's parents for allowing the use of this photo taken during our visit. May GOD bless and use your family in ways beyond what you could ask or imagine!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Seven Years and Counting

Like wool, our marriage has continued to breath and keep us warm despite occasional soaking rains from life's storms. God continues to grow and change each of us, for the better. Some of life's lessons have been easy, some difficult. Many days in "The Perdue Zoo" have been both exciting and scary. Each of our tomorrows never fail to give new definition to adventure. The lines between dream and reality blur as best friends continue to dance through this life as one!

Happy Anniversary, my love!

D: Divinely chosen to complete my life!
O: Obsessively observant...the quality I love to hate:)
U: Understanding when life makes no sense!
G: Genuine~The authentic real deal!
L: Loving when I am not lovable!
A: Amazing husband and father!
S: Safe haven when my heart is weak!

Forever and Always,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Journal Notes: My Nana

 In June of 1978, Nana was diagnosed with Hodgkins Disease. Any form of cancer in the seventies was a death sentence. Not much was known about cancer and it caused fear in the hearts of many. Friends and some family backed away, probably unsure of what to say or do.

Quickly, Nana's body was racked with pain and eaten alive from the inside out. We kept her at home as long as possible. At age 12,  I spent my days by her side learning to give medicine and care for her other needs. I read and talked to her; it is where I wanted to be. I treasure those moments in time as painful as they were for both she and I.

Nana's physician would come by weekly to check on her and administer chemo. He would sit at the kitchen table and mix the drugs for her chemotherapy. He carefully and methodically tried to save his patient, but nothing worked. The tray of medications was enormous, but Nana continued to decline, daily.

From early June to late September; that's all the time three little girls had left with the most important person in their lives. Papa lived for about two more years, but it was not the same. Papa spoiled us, but Nana  had provided a safe haven from the outside world. Life forever changed in her absence. Heaven gained a godly mother and grandmother,  earth lost a priceless treasure.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

More Exerts From My Journal

More exerts from my journal:


My father, eighteen and mother, fourteen when I was conceived eloped shortly after my mothers fifteenth birthday.  Each of my parents searched for love, but evidence of true love did not exist. Possibly each felt they had found true love, but love does not knowingly provoke harm.

My fathers heart embodied a childhood of abuse rendering him volatile. Did he realize his anger spewed and wounded each of us? Did he feel remorse?

My mother, a child herself never grew strong enough to defend herself or her children. She found freedom from my father when he divorced her after the tragic death of my youngest sister in 1989.

Unfortunately, both of my parents live out their lives without the joy of truly knowing their children or enjoying healthy relationships with us. While both seem content in their own worlds, I fear neither understand or comprehend the true love of Christ and the peace and contentment only GOD can provide.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Personal Thoughts

Sharing a personal journal entry, today:

My Nana would have been about forty two years old when I was born to her fifteen year old daughter. She must have been worried and upset at the prospect of her little girl raising a little girl. I am confident her heart broke as life became increasingly complicated for her new grandchild.

Nana did her best to keep my life normal and make me feel safe until the day she was taken from this world. By the time of her death at age fifty four, her face was full of wrinkles and she had been dying her hair for years. Could stress have taken its toll on her young body? The same body taken had cradled me and the same hands lovingly made my clothes and fixed all my favorite foods. The heart now with GOD loved me despite the circumstances of my birth. I wonder if she thought it coincidence or a divine appointment I was born on the same date as her own mother, my great grandmother?

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

Oh, That I Would Listen!

God speaks loudly through His creation:

Thunder burst forth...
Yet some do not hear.

God remains faithful...

Holding...
Strengthening...
Moving...

Oh that I would listen...

Lord, help me to hear Your still small voice in the midst of each storm!

Last weekend, Doug and I attended a family members wedding. During the vows a long rumble of thunder rolled through the beautiful sanctuary. GOD spoke clearly to my heart through the words above! No matter what I experience in this world, HE is my strength and shield. HE is forever faithful! Sometimes, my mind becomes so cluttered it takes a large rumble of thunder in the midst of profound silence to get my attention.

As I giggled, my much more dignified cousin punched and shushed me. I promptly got myself together and thought, "Yes, my precious LORD, I hear You!" God has a great since of humor. Hearing thunder during a January wedding in South Carolina is quite unusual.

Later, Doug told me he felt God's hand brush his shoulder during the thunder. You might say, "how did he know it was God?" Good question. There was "no one" sitting on the pew behind him. My eyes widened and my heart smiled as I recognized God's presence in each detail of our lives.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue

~Thank you to each of you who have been praying for Doug and I. Thank you for your continued prayers as we embrace each day seeking HIS complete healing in every area of our lives, especially Doug's body.

Update on Doug: Small amount (5%) of cancer (slow growing) in one strand of the twelve biopsy's. He will be monitored by the Urologist on a regular basis! THANKS for your continued prayers! We greatly appreciate them.

 By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea

URGENT PRAYER REQUEST

Please storm the heavens in prayer for my husband, Doug. Recently, his PSA levels jumped from .8 to 7.4. After repeated blood-work, the levels maintained an elevated status. We met with our urologist in late December. After examination, he scheduled a biopsy. Today, Dr. Morgan did 12 biopsy's. We meet with Dr. Morgan on January 25th to discuss the results and treatment options, if necessary.

Up until today, Doug did NOT want to discuss his medical situation. The children and I respected his request. We only shared it with some family and a few close friends. After Doug's biopsy, he asked me to write about his medical situation.

Doug loves the Lord and knows the power of prayer. He and I both appreciate your love, encouragement, and prayers more than you will ever know.

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,
Andrea

Just Do It!

As we continue to surrender our burdens, our greatest fears, and our deepest needs let us cling to HIS presence, HIS peace, HIS comfort, and HIS strength!

Enough said.....Just do it!

By HIS mercy and in the grip of HIS grace,

Andrea Bowling Perdue